By: sally on Tuesday, March 22, 2005

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so, what's been happening with my life lately? i just had few realizations for the simple things that occur in my life.

realization 1: being sensitive

i always thought that i had already fixed this sickness. there are times when i think that i already know that truth and though it hurts a lot i can still manage to laugh and pretend to be happy. pero kapag andyan na, masakit parin. i still feel that sting, that i want to just cry in one corner. nagi-guilty ako. i don't want to lose my friends because of it. i just can't help but recall those feelings kapag nab-bring up. oh well, i still need a lot of practice for that. hope nothing will change. love ko kayo talaga sobra kahit ano mangyari..

realization 2: the HP thing

last saturday, we went to Robinsons Summit Center for the HP Orientation. wala lang, i just realizes that i want to be there. that somehow there is the longing na sana makapasok ako dun. pero kung hindi, okay lang. pero nakakahinayang. it's really easy to go there from our house. and the benefits are also good lalo na kapag iyung overall packaging ang titingnan.pero there's also this side of me that's telling me that i wont be able to get into that company. i'm not that good naman kasi with interviews. maybe the company is not for me.sana hindi ganun ang cyberj.yung hindi super achiever yung hinahanap.

realization 3: dance maniac addiction

my God!wala na kong bukam-bibig kundi ang arcade game na to!i don't know but i think my frustration with dance revolution was now channeled to my addiction to this new game. when i go to malls, this is what i find first. kung meron ba sila nun sa arcade zone nila.haayy..ang gastos. thank God merong SM manila.:D

realization 4: spiritual life

i went to church last sunday. weird, after months of not entering our parish, i was able to hear the mass that day. i completed the entire mass though i was somehow irritated for standing all throughout. i also get distracted with our parish priest, he's an indian and he's having a hard time saying the mass in Filipino. kaya ayun parang di mo gano magets. i had this drive to get back to being active in church. pero alam kong mahirap na bumalik since matagal na kong nawala. i started being part of our church choir during my elementary days(grade 3) and naging commentator din ako. but then sobrang tagal na. i decided to leave when i went to masci. and now, i don't even know a single person in the choir.hope that i can fulfill my duty every sunday. start muna ko sa pag-aattend ng mass regularly.

realization 5: expect the unexpected

i was with my s20 barkada last night. i'm happy that i got to talk to them: reyn, yanyan and ann since it we rarely see each other due to our schedule. wala lang, kwento-kwento, sharing things para maupdate ang isa't isa. we had fun though we only spend an hour and a half together. i realized from our sharing that even for things that you are confident to do fine, unexpected things happen.. if only i could do something to change the way things would be.